31 DEC 2013

Last day of 2013, I have been go through a lot of things within this year especially the relationship.
Understand what is the meaning of sad song, emo song;
the meaning of lyrics

A strong relationship never influence by others, it need corporation by two people. It cant be one keep giving and another keep received. It must be balance sometimes.

Dont try against your heart, you will be suffer, other too!


Listen to your heart

first post on year 2013 :))))
this picture was taken last year december before headed out to gather with my old lovely friends.
Just start a quarter of 2013, but it is happen a lot things that i cant expect. especially in this month.
I know the secret that i should not know.
something shouldnt know better than know it.

Be calm
Be patience
Be happy
Be knowledgeable

PEACE (;

Appreciate

this photo taken when fathers day

Ola(: , yup it is September right now.....

Suddenly i feel like wanna write a post here 

Just finished semester 1 from my new school, I re-study again but in different course... This time  I choose psychology although I m not sure is it suitable for me but i got interest on it, actually i got interest on everything except business thing. LOL.  Now is the second week of semester break. I found that i am wasting my time due to i just keep sleeping.

But this few days I feel warmly and love.

I have been long long time didnt heard my mum talk to me with a softly voice....

I know that sound like ridiculous , but the feeling is from the deep inner heart. ❤

I have a best friend, I  m so envy about her, she have a lot of friends, a brave heart, a confident attitude, and always have many "great" people beside her. then she told me if u are appreciate to everyone and everything no matter how is bad, actually u can feel that everyone is "great" person who are beside you. I am stand in amazement for a moment, this is a great sentence....

i think all of us already forgot what is appreciate. We should appreciate everything happen around us, there have much relation between us, like the Sun, It give the life in the earth, so that we exist. If we always think and look on positive side, there have no one thing is perfect and complete. Every single thing have two side, No, I means actually is one side, is we view it in two side. If we stay open minded, and view it in whole side, the life will better.

Last week, i would like to thanks to my best friend, shirley, who bring me go for a meditation "event", i learned so many things :)). After talks, I just realise i m so foolish and shallow. because i dont know the truth meaning in the world. the every sentence what they said in the talk have a deep meaning, I just get it a little bit. i should learn from them. I m so appreciate i had meet the guys.

so thankful i live in earth:) 

No more evade

Ciao~ spring. :D

In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure.

A short journal to me. I have been working full time as a math instructor for one year, but a good chance to learn aptitude and attitude to me such as patient and spirituality because my center director is a quite spiritual person and she knows a lot of things. I feel grateful and lucky that I am working with them. Appreciate every moment while they taught me and their advise when I get in trouble.

Within working period I have tried to evade or something like give up,else stop the job due to my laziness and communication problem. I really dont know how to speak well in english, this problem like a barrier to block me always even shy away people and hope they better dont talk to me. O.Olll. I think this is funny. Some more children will laugh at my pronunciation. LOL. 

But I got improve although just speak fluent in mathematics language. HAHAHA   

I found that there a lot of perspectives in everything. No matter bad situation or good, must think in positive way so that we will have a life with happy heart. <3  

It time to boost myself!!

感慨

我突然心血来潮想来个长篇文章，我没有很好的文笔，也没有优美的词句，只想用几个简单的字来表达我的内心。

先和大家说“生日快乐”，哈哈，今天初七也是所谓的‘人日’。传说女蜗初创世，在造出了鸡狗猪牛马等动物后，于第七天造出了人，所以这一天是人类的生日。


不知道今天闷闷的，就跑去我的旧博客看回我的以前生活。原来我2008年就开始写了，有167篇。后来突然很想换domain，所以就create了这个博客以示新的开始=）
我看到了一篇，我留言给我的foundation朋友那篇，你们还是一样leh，只是没有以前这样每天在一起玩。哈哈


话不多说，前面写那些有的没有的，我主要要写的不是要写这个阿！！=————=
每年从婆婆家回来，都会很不舍得。今天也不例外，我回去了一个星期。由于我们是第一家人到那儿的，所以我就想，婆婆只能每逢佳节才能看到我们，佳节完了，就眼看着我们离去。我觉得好心酸哦。
我公公婆婆已经八十多岁了，但他们还是像以前一样，种菜，做家务等，也许这是他们的生活规律吧。
但也七老八十了，他们也不愿意搬出城市住，因为那边有他们的回忆，我爸爸长大的地方。说真的，我好想去聆听他们以前的故事，一定很有趣的. 我好想知道他们现在的思想，我真的很好奇。


都不懂我自己在写什么。ZZzzz

30 Jan★

Chinese New Year around the corner:))))

Do u all buy new clothes already??!!! I havent buy enough. 

After finish Secondary school for few years, feel like the time was running fast and I dint noticed it I m getting old and old. My face become CHUBBY; my eyes become smaller; my thigh become FAT;   especially my bottom =(. And my TEETH, I less wear retainers after wear off braces due to I m glutton while study secondary school so cause this happen. I may listen doctor advice, wear it everyday. I feel regret now, but its too late T.T,not the time to blame here. I must do more exercise in this year. LOL. I do exercise not more than 10 times in one year. Zzzz

A few days ago, I get sicked again. Fever, flu, cough, ulcer and "dai yi ma", All come visit me together, make me so suffer. :(. Thankz Chok♥ take care me well for few days. I feel better now.

Its time to packing my clothes.

Bye★

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Ex-worked

when work there, I found that the new hire always have buried by the old workers? 

Why i will say like that because i m the one be new hire before.lol

I m not trying to complain but i would like to tell the fact.Maybe all of you are know about this situation but i still wanna speak out. lol

I m so nervous and stress when step in the office(i didnt work at office before), I can remembered that time i feel so stranger about the place and dun noe wat to do. Then got a worker names Ms.S. She give me a lot work to me, I hate filing. Filing will make me MAD!!!. After that, she teach me a lot a lot that i dun noe. 

I admit that i not so like work with her because need to OT . But after few weeks, I found that she was a caring people who always take care about me. She is the one who the oldest one. She da bao lunch to me when my first day work , because got another worker Mr.Y giv me a lot paper to Photostat and i dun noe wher can eat the lunch. but Ms.S helped me. 

She really a caring people. :). Other worker are a bit selfish to me, they wouldn't care people feeling and so kek sui seriously!!!!!! I dun noe how to describe lah, they are emotional people. ZZzzz

They hurt me sometimes but they do not know it.

What i trying to say is although i m the youngest one, but i still have self-esteem. Please respect people no matter what race , what age, what position !! Every person got their SELF-ESTEEM. 

I dun like i do not have a fixed place. got new hire then ask me change place. then keep ask me extend. have new permanent worker , introduce everyone without me although i at the scene. U do not know the feeling. sometimes the things are very easy job but u all dun wan do urself. keep to the new hire to do. Hey, u think new hire got 8 hands, while helping A ppl then ask me help B ppl. still wanna ask this one urgent arnot, if not urgent , do mine first. F'''

But i end this work soon. But i like Sam.Sam was treat me so good and other new hire too.

Wish got a permanent staff can help her a lot.

WT..

Dear me,

I am veri unhappy. Menstrual was annoying my mood and my motion, :(

WTH!!!!! Oh yeah, today is Christmas eve. Guess what!! I AT HOME!

I Do not why I always in bad mood in every festival or festival eve such as my birthday?!!

It almost everytime I be in Off mode. 

I think i m boring . I M BORING about the feeling that veri disappointed.

I HATE IT so bad. I have nothing can say.

FULL STOP

口吃屎

最近我跟了一个比我小又没脑的人吵架。 

这纠纷不是我引起的，说真的。我不知道为什么我竟然吵到一半我哭了。我觉得我很失败。

但那神经病还是一直射子弹过来。可能我那天有点累，所以眼浅了一点。你都知道人一不够睡，就会变得很容易哭。

请不要用你的笨蛋头脑来批评我的是非，因为你还不够资格。但我知道你已经觉得自己很够资格啦。

还有请停止你的马屁术！！

你口吃屎地骂了我几个要点，我觉得有几个应该是讲这你自己吧！

第一，我没有觉得我有男朋友就大完。你的意思是说我有靠山？！！还是哪一条毛得罪到你？

第二，你说你忍了我很久，说我sibeh lanci 和 lan babai。那你有没有想过自己还要比我严重？

我觉得这一句话应该留给你自己，你懂为什么没有人这样骂你吗？因为你真的无药可救了。从以前到现在，你有哪一次有尊敬过长辈的？我想一下，有！在拍人马屁的时候。

第三，说我小气，呵呵，我承认我是有点小气，那你很大气吗？ 不见得！经过这几天，我发现你比我还要小气！你做事情到底有没有经过大脑阿？好，你说你有两张免费戏票，是你朋友给你的，你朋友的车满了位，不能载你，所以才叫我一起去，ok，这不是一个问题，问题是我不想看那套戏，难道免费戏票要我非看不可吗？

还有如果我男友载我去，没有可能我和你去看戏，然后丢我男友一个人在那边独自逛街一直等到我们看完戏吧？算了算了，我说我载你去，然后我和男友逛街，你一个人进去看吧，这样无端端我们全部人就被骂Dulan，然后不爽的讲不要去了。Halo。你以为你是谁？（你不能一个人进去看，你朋友不是也在里面。真的是神经病。）还有很多很多没大脑的事情。

第四，讲我千金，我觉得你应该还没看过真正的千金吧，我这种叫千金，真好笑，那么很多人可以归类成千金了。

你还有骂我什么？我突然忘记了。

骂我Sohai，哈哈哈哈，我觉得你比较像Sohai咯。还有什么奉陪到底？给你陪到底拉，我不介意。我怕你后来血管爆掉！！

刚刚说了一些你骂我的话，现在轮到我了，上次还没来得及反驳。

首先请不要自认为自己是一个美女，美女不能当饭吃。

第二不要自以为是，你是晚辈，和长辈说“吃盐多过你吃饭”这种话也说得出，你不觉得很奇怪吗！！！

第三不要认为自己是永远对的,please lah,地位在高也要听人劝告，你连一颗绿豆都不如，还能批评人家一定是错的！

第四不要五十步笑百步，hey，你骂我的几个要点，你都有！当你也有类似的缺点，请不要推在人家身上。

第五你的马屁术，不要一直在别人身上拍马屁，我看到都厌倦了。而且拍到也蛮自然嘛。哈哈。所以才很多人很喜欢你吧，你放心，终有一天纸包不住火的。

第六你以为你很厉害讲话吗？我一点都不觉得，因为你厉害的都是那些从沟渠绕上来的话，太难听了，动不动就骂粗口，

对了，你骂我dulan，sohai。一点礼貌也没有，看到我哭，还要丢一句过来，“哭啦，哭啦，哭饱他啦你”，真的一讲到这个火都来。

第七请不要把你的想法放在别人的想法上，每个人都有自己的想法。我举个例子，你明明不适合那件衣服，我就说不适合，你摆一个臭脸过来，这是什么意思？难道你觉得好看，我就要说好看？很奇怪很奇怪。

第八不要在我背后颠倒是非，我知道你会把不好的都推在我身上。还有没有人会把自己的不好说给别人听，但你会。

第九不要不懂装懂，我最最最最讨厌这种人，这种人明明不懂还要装到很懂，有时候不是我不要和你说话，是和你说话，都不懂要讲什么，你什么都懂，有什么好谈leh。一点点又不爽，真的是整个小气人！！！！！！！

我刚刚才发觉原来不只我一个人觉得他有问题，lol

那你知道你有这些问题吗？我想应该不知道，好可悲！

ish~~

101010

I m so LOVE love love love today.
Because 101010. so special!!!!!!
Btw, Happy birthday to me. HAppy monthsary to us.
Congratulations to dong brother and angie sister.


LOVE LOVE LOVE

恋爱通告 ；你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛         才学会飞行 
夜空洒满了星星         但几颗会落地 
我飞行      但你坠落之际 
很靠近      还听见呼吸 
对不起      我却没捉紧你 
你不知道我为什么离开你 
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣 
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨    碎落满地   在心里清晰 
你不知道我为什么狠下心 
盘旋在你看不见的高空里 
多的是       你不知道的事 


我好喜欢这首歌，这是恋爱通告的主题曲 <3

好好笑，但依然很帅=）

方大同客串=）

金童玉女=D

我好像看回这一幕，超好笑。他一直跑来跑去

rate ：8.9 /10

十句话

第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第一步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步



第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人



第三句
付出真心，才会得到真心
却也可能伤的彻底
保持距离，就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞



第四句
有时候，不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重



第五句
朋友，就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人



第六句
就算是believe，中间也藏了一个lie



第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起        就算不说话
也不会感到尴尬



第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人



第九句
为你的难过而快乐的      是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的      是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些    该放进心里的人



第十句
冷漠      有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具





认真去思考，你会得到意想不到的收获。=)

10th

Hello earthlings~
This photo was taken for long time ago.....=) XXO
Write 10th as my title because this is my 10th post. haha




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Just back from school after finish the prob and stat I test 1.
The paper still the same , damn difficult same as last semester )=
I twist my brains before the test, but finally still dun noe how to do.  NO-GO X)
My eyes almost drop since i too tired and not enough sleep. 

Today skip class.
Ah kei make me cant sleep well in whole night yesterday.
beh tahan her dun nid sleep in night one. lol
Tomorrow probability and statistics test 1
i haven touch the paper yet. ><
veri busy ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wan dip a deep deep deep hole to hide myself
and force me dont 38 visit ppl blog
then can really hide myself ady.
I dun noe ppl, ppl dun noe me. ><
隐居. hahahhahahahahXD
I not really like the social, because it is hard to communicate
because every ppl are different, some times they bad but u dun noe.
after few times happen, I m TIRED.
I admit , I lose. i wanna quit  of this war

I

For friends, 我选择了放手。

因为我不想再为朋友而伤心.

Erstwhile

It is take place on 3 & 4 of July or when in joo house or in shirley house.=))) I still remember the feeling we been together in the moment since this F★★ling is emerge on secondary school and hard to find back now.X)

Because we talk a lot girl's stuffs.

I got some bosom friends especially 7 flowers. I know you all and me will not forget when we play together; eat together; laughing together when bully "someone" although our relationship not so close if compare to precious.

But I know we will not forget each other.

SUDDEN BLANK MIND XO

True happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice.